Just.

I lost the train of thought and now i have nothing to say.
Song in the background is 'ghost town ' by first aid kit.

I have a weird affinity to cigarettes. 

But my father and my step father smoked.  So all the hugs where with a hint of nicotine i guess. Pretty addictive and safe as well. So here im trying to find the hint of nicotine in every hug i come across.  

Conversations never happened with my father nor with my step father. And so white noise of the tv was what filled the void. And now all i have is so much of white noise.